the dreams in which i'm dieing are the best i've ever had

holy shit, it's been like 3498309483 years since i've blogged but i doubt anyone reads this. it's 7 on a sunday night and i have yet to shower.

i am so tired and i just want to crawl in a hole. just thought i'd let people know.

well i can't regret it, can't you just forget it?

tonight i'm staying with basia at her house. she's on her new lab top and i'm on her old computer. which is how we spend most nights, i'm used to blogging and what not with somebody because thats what we do at jamies. i miss jamie dearly. i miss alot of things about my summer.
the freedom, sleeping all day long, staying up all night, still talking to alot of people that no longer want anything to do with me. summer is long gone and the cold weather has taken over.
tomorrow i'm probably going to go freeze (freesen) at the football game. the first one i've been to all year. but oh well. some days i enjoy my life and the people in it. while other days i want to slaughter them all.
thats pretty much it.

goodbye, lay the blame on love.

so today i realized that i have had no real relationships. i've never been with anybody that actually cared more about me then themselves. OH, they all pretended to and i believed them...every single time. it's quite sad how delusional i have been this entire time.
i just wish for once i could meet a guy who is seriously going to be with me. not just looking for soemone to have sex with them.
my hands smell like hot sauce still. i'm just done, i'm just going to crawl in a hole and give up. becuase guys aren't looking for girls like me, guys don't want girls like me. random obsessive girls that have random obsessions. i'm just a mess and i just don't see how anyone could want me.
on the outside i may seem perfect. put together, beautiful, smart, funny, interesting. but in all reality, i'm none of those things. i just wish the inside could match my appearance.

fear me dear for i am death.

yesterday was a pretty interesting day. it started off with me putting a bunch of clothes away then driving mitchells friend billy home then trying to get ahold of maureen...that was impossible. so then i took tina to work and went up to binghamton. after that i came home made dinner with mom and did yoga on my kitchen floor. i had to search for change so i could go get ice cream from moe while she was working. when i got over there they didn't have the ice cream i wanted so meagan gave me some free ice cream :) it was the best day of my life.
when i got home i grabbed a sweatshirt and went to kyles. i got back from there around 2 and watched some fight club then went to bed.
it was a pretty eventful saturday.

i wish you would just drink a knife!

so it's friday, and i'm at Maureens. she is down stairs showering and i am listening to dane cook. BRAIN NINJAS!!
my weekend started with me and moe walking down town to get some ice cream. it was amazing, nestle crunch flurry :D. so then once we got back and we were looking at Katherine Heigels new chinese baby we decided we HAD to watch p.s. i love you. so we walked BACK down town to rent it where i saw my dads BFFF. that was interesting people are starting to recognize me, and it's kinda odd. so then we got back and looked up lyrics for tattoos then after i sang every brand new song i could think off we started the movie. i had all i could do not to ball my eyes out completely. whenever moe heard me sigh and start to sniff she'd turn around "SHHHH don't start". this is why i love her to death.
i can not believe it is 9:16 already. i think dane cook is funny. but some people don't :P(i love how little we have in common but ily) i really don't like roman noodles. they're kinda just ok.

YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW!

nights like these remind me of the summer of '08 when i spent everyday with moe, going to the movies with her and sean before him and sam got back together. talking all night about nothing and everything, not wanting to go back to school ever, discussing what we can't wait for, making plans we'll probably never fallow through, everyone has a best friend. but not everyone has a maureen.
so thats all for now :)

well cross my heart and hope to, i'm lying just to keep you here.

i just got back from maureens 17th birthday cinematic adventure. it started of with me driving ON THE HIGHWAY. then we got some cold stone(also known as eatable heaven). then we went to see the ugly truth which truely was just amazing. gerard butler has had my heart since i cried through p.s. i love you, also saw that with maureen odd...ANYWAY!

i had so much fun just talking with moes through the credits, she worked over the summer then school started and things have just gotten complicated it's good to know that in the end she's still my BFFF. she's just the complete opposite of me and we both know it. she makes me smile and she brings out my better side. everyone knows that i've made her open up a little more and she's made me alot less obnoxious(OH HAVE FUN STICKING NEEDLES IN YOUR ARM!). i love her to death and she knows it. she actually gave me a hug when i dropped her off and she didn't cringe or say NO!!! like she usually does :)

spending some quality time with my moesey has definitely made me feel a little better about the way things are going.

i just need to get the balance back, and moe definitely balances me out.

and i blame myself because i make things hard and you're just trying to help.

today was so uneventful. but it seems thats my life full of everything but events. this blog is going to be about absolutely nothing because thats what happened to me today. i have nothing to say i am thinking nothing. it's like the show about nothing except it's the blog about nothing. theres nothing weird about this NOTHING! you really look at the word nothing differently after awhile, it's not just nothing i'ts no thing.
for some reason my playlist ALWAYS plays say anything. and believe me i love say anything(not as much as me) but it gets annoying after awhile because i'd like to listen to other things it's not shuffle it's just say anything! BLABLABLA.
i don't even have thoughts rignt now, neutral milk hotel is a nice band. song against sex is playing right now. oh what....IT'S SAY ANTYING AGAIN!!!!!!
see this post is completely pointless if you take the time to read this i'm sorry that i wasted your time.
maybe i should only blog when i actually have an idea or anything to talk about rather then nothing. well thats all for now.

but i've crawled home from worse then this.

today i've been home baking with my mother darling. it's a cold september saturday and i just want to curl up with alice and keep warm. i'm so posed to be staying in lately because of last weekends adventure. i'm going to miss deposite, i won't be going there for awhile :( Jamie, Amanda, Will, Miranda, Jayhomon i'll miss them all.

in my life, in any ones life for that matter, nothing is sure but change. some just come sooner then others. at this point i'm trying to make some personal changes, it's something i have to do for myself. i just don't like the way things have been going, it doesn't feel right.

i feel like i'm running in circles, i keep making the same mistakes and i keep saying i'm not going to make them anymore. it's not that it's a lie, it's just harder then i thought.

high school just isn't my thing, i enjoy my teachers but the other students drive me insane. i don't feel that i'm above them, it's just i don't feel the need to play their silly petulant games. i have about two years left then i can leave this all behind.

but theres so much that i can't just run away from because it will fallow me where ever i go, the sooner i realize this the better. life isn't just going to fall into place and start magically being perfect. it's always going to be messy and sloppy. i will make mistakes my entire life. the point is to keep going, not just give up. i can't just go crawl in a whole because it hasn't been my day. nothing and no one will ever be perfect.

when i say lets keep in touch, i really mean i wish that'd you'd grow up

i opened up my aim and of course the annoying aim Internet came up and i glanced at it while i was closing out of it and i noticed that it said "blablabla fifth beatle bla". and it just made me think about how many times i've heard about "the fifth beatle" and it's always some one different. it's just one of those things that annoys me. there are and were four beatles there always have been and thats the way it will always be. there were a couple different members when they started like they had a different drummer and such but the four that got famous are the beatles. SO JUST STOP WITH THE FIFTH BEATLE. he doesn't exist, it's like the tooth fairy or bambi.
also ex coke head wanna be British rock stairs with fake accents and fake stage names drive me insane.

dear jamie,

i am, yet again, sitting next to jamie watching fight club. she's reading and i'm blogging. but we are listenting to edward norton narrate and explain insonia "everything is a copy of a copy of a copy". this movie makes me so happy, but the last couple of times i've watched i can't get into it because we end up talking and what not. i've heard about this movie for awhile, brad pitts first movie. kelly used to talk about it alot and she still does. she doesn't even know she always tries to sound cool by talking about things that are unpopular that people don't know about. she annoys me alot. she honestly is the most fake person i have ever known. what bothers me the most is that she acts like she cares about james but all she really cares about is partying and being cool.

most people from my school/town bug me. there are very few that don't. honestly there are very few people at all that don't bug me in some way. i'm sure i'm annoying but well i could care less anymore. i am who i am. i have flaws and short comings but own up to them and i'm working on it. i've made mistakes and unlike most ignorant 16 year old girls i've learned from them and i do worry about being stuck in susquehanna forever. i have goals, not just dreams, that i con accomplish. i may be uncool now but at least i'll have a life, i won't be here sticking needles in my arm or at the bar every day. functioning alcoholics, how disgusting.

i want so much more out of life then just the middle. more then being popular in high school, being at the coolest parties, sleeping with the hot guys, wearing the brand names. i'm not saying i'm above all of these things i just handle myself differently.

i guess i'm just different, i'm at a different point in my life. most teenagers have the same perspective but i think i have a different angle. i do not mind one bit. i'd rather now be like the rest of them. in the end i know i'll go further, do more, experience more, live more. even if they view living through a bottle or a needle. all i know is that i'm sick of everyone. i'm sick of myself.

tonight i won't make a difference

tonight i watched teagan and torin. they are 4 and 2 and absolutely adorable. i love them to death. torin wouldn't eat his dinner and wrecked the entire house. teagan showed me her dance and had me watch our dance recital from last year. torin closed teagans fingers in the door and of course she started bleeding. that was so much fun. so now she is laying next to me while we watch santa clause 3 filled with creepy 12 year old elfs. im also watching the WTF blanket which fancy showed me, youtube it! it is hilarious. i'm going home now.

and i wish that i could tell you right now, i love you.

love.

such a complex word. most 16 year old girls claim to be in love at one point or another. but how many of us actually are? i believe that it's a matter of opinion. who am i to judge your feelings for somebody? unless i can get into your head and think and feel exactly as you do, it's completely impossible. i will never tell anyone "YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT LOVE IS!" many people have tried to tell me over the years. it always made me angry, mostly because i hate being told what to do or that i'm wrong, but also because half the time they didn't know what love is themselves, or so it would seem to me. am i making sense at all?

the thing is, at this point in my life i have loved a lot of people. i'm a sucker for a sweet talker, and so much more. there are a few people who did deserve to have my heart but things just didn't work out the way we planned. i'm glad that they are still in my life and i will always remember them. on the other hand there are a couple people who did not deserve me at all. i know i sound stuck up, but it's true. nobody should be treated the way some guys have done to me. i have been used too many times to count and most of the time i was head over heels while they could care less. i'm beginning to believe that every time my heart is broken it grows back even bigger, to make more room for the future. because once you love somebody, really love them, you don't ever stop...a very precious man said that to me a long time ago and i will never forget it.

if god gave me grace, then why aren't i graceful?

there are too many people that do not even remember me and i care about them. it gets me NO WHERE! at all. why do i even bother to go out of my way? why do i feel connected to these people that were once a huge part of my life? why can't i just get over the past? thats right because i'm not a junkie. i'm nobody though, i guess. nobody cares that i exist. i am nothing, a stupid little girl, but i'd rather be nothing, nobody, or a stupid little girl then sticking needles in my arm to feel anything for anybody else. i'd rather have real emotions for the people i care about then just a bunch of lies.

i'd rather be me any day, i'd rather have a real home and real friends. not just physcotic parents who are in and out of jail/rehab or "friends" that only hang out with me for drugs or so they can look cool. i'd rather be liked for who i really am then for people think i am for the image i give off.

james and sinie are two people i can not stop caring for no matter how much they hate me. yes i will back off and stay out of their lives. i do not expect them to randomly come back, because i'm not five and i know it's not going to happen. but i love them even though i wish i could hate them very much.

cause i'm a wishful thinker with the worst intentions

i just got home form muffins, we had just bought snakes and were going to watch queen of the damned but my other was on her way. so now here i sit in front of my very very old junkie computer. not that my computer shoots up(not unlike somebody i know!) but it's a piece of junk.

well i told johnny to read my blog because well i just thought that no one reads my blogs. it turns out that he reads them every day with out me telling him to. which made me almost cry with happiness. i love him more than you could ever imagine. idc how insane that sounds. he is the sweetest person on the entire planet. me and him aren't so good right now. but for some reason we both always break down and tell eachother "i love you". he makes me incredibly sad, yet oh so happy. it seems he's always making me cry either because i want to jump off a bridge or because he's so sweet. he's the only person who thinks i'm more beautiful than i do. thats just about the first thing he said to me. he's one of the only people i love more than myself...and that takes alot. he's just as selfless as i am selfish. thats half our problem, he spoils me and i only make things worse. if i wasn't such an egotistical bastard things would work out much better for us.

and i'm sick of your tattoos...

amanda is a sweetheart, i'm on her computer right now because i've known her for about 24 hours and she likes me already. which is odd because most people find my obnoxious habbits and insane personality annoying but she enjoys it. she's talking about climbing in her window drunk AHHHH!

now we're singing mix tape. i've known her for even shorter then i've known jamie but i can not wait to spend more weekends with these two. and akela even though she'd love to make me sleep in a tent outside.

sitting here blogging with jamie, talking with amanda, drinking vitamin water just feels like exactly where i need to be. i honestly feel as if i fit in here which honestly sounds lame and all but who cares? i don't. so i just wanted to make a nice little post about me new amazing friend amanda.

ILOVEYOUJAMIEBROWN

i know that you're an angel, but you could never stay true.

THIS ENTIRE POST IS ME RANTING!!!!!!!

for some reason people seem to think i am carrying a child. I AM NOT PREGNANT! just to let all of you know. there have been a few people to mention things. if i eat too much and stick my belly out i can make myself look pregnant so my brother and i kinda have a joke where he asks me when the baby is due. it's all in good fun so i do not mind. however when zach wignall asks me if i had my baby i kinda get offended. OR when people leave me picture comments asking "how far along are you?" i cry a little and start planning ways to cause them massive amounts of pain!

secondly, BELLA SWAN is the most annoying character in the history of vampire books. she just wins about how she is not good enough for EC and blablabla i'm lame bla. she makes me extremely angry. then kristen stewart just tops it all off. she is so ugly and terrible at acting. seriously what does she have going for her? she constantly looks confused, wheres bowling shirts, has a mullet, makes cat noises, has weird teeth, talks the same in every single movie she is in. i loath kristen stewart and bella swan, and i mega loath kristen stewart as bella swan. i just do not understand what is so great about her. really? she is just completely terrible she doesn't even act she just stands there and looks confused!!!

i'll give you everything you want and wish the worst on what i've got.

i have just woken up and i'm sitting next to jamie my muffin :). she feels like she got hit by a train and i am surprised i'm functioning and able to put sentences together. i'm having some trouble typing right now. i feel very similar to jamie. my throat feels like i tried to swallow a curling iron. i feel washed up. i think i'm done for now.

would you like to forget?

this new post is basically a response to jamies latest blog.

it got me thinking about how all of us have pain all of us have issues. most people have had it "rough", most people have been through something they'd like to forget, something we don't deserve to have happen to us.

i find out daily that people have had their fair share of hard times, most have hit rock bottom. it's the stronger ones that have the courage to climb back out. thats what separates us all. not how we handle our problems because we all make mistakes. it's how we bounce back and deal with the messes we make. some people can fall get back up and walk away while others get carried away.

it just makes you think....

well can't you live without the attention?

i have the need to find a vice, a release, a way to vent. something to make all the pain, sadness, shallowness, emptiness, bottomless just disappear. i could live without so many people in my life i just can not find the strength to cut them out completely. i always find myself so close to letting go but i just keep them around, just in case. just in case of what? if i ever need them again? if i ever want them again, better yet if they ever want me again?
there have been too many disappointments in my life. i've been let down too many times to count or to even recall. some days i feel my entire if is just one big let down. i just feel completely useless. like i'm just somebody thats good for a laugh now and then somebody who can talk to anyone. but not the person that anybody needs. it's like nobody needs mandalyn around, she's just there. "have i ever let us down?" i can honestly say that i believe that most people would just move on if i didn't exist anymore. i mean people would miss me but not enough to count.
i think i'm the one who loves me the most. you could say that mandalyn loves mandalyn more than anything. i am selfish, i am conceded, i am spoiled, i am empty. i put myself before most people. i look out for myself more than others. it is so sad, people shouldn't be this pompous. however, i sometimes wish my friends could be as selfish as i am and do things for themselves then for other people or because of other people.
i don't know how i got to this point. all that i've been through in these short 16 years has made me bitter. "you met me at a very strange time in my life" if you compare me and my younger brother you will see that we are nothing alike. all that has happened as made us two completely different people. he is quiet and reserved. he does things to benefit others, he is shy and down to earth. while i on the other hand am obnoxious, outgoing, selfish, conceded, pompous, eccentric, egotistical, shallow, and overly opinionated. if you didn't notice i had a lot more to say about myself then about him.
i'm just going to stop here all this self loathing is making me depressed.

i've got the mic and you've got the moshpit

right now i am sitting with jamie brown. we just got back from a trip to wendys. i'm also mad at myspace because it won't let me copy the bulletin!!!

anyway we had an interesting walk to wendys. we got some frostys and everything was good. so we started to return to jamies house and it started raining. no not just raining it was pouring. not regular oh it's pouring out. we were soaked within seconds. we both were wearing our glasses and they got all fogged up so we were blind and running to the country store but then we couldn't run anymore. we made it to the country store i got some food and we waited for it to stop, eventually it stopped raining and finished walking to her house. we got some dry clothes and i then i decided to blog our eventful night :)

jamie is now telling me a story about JAYHOMAN saving her from a moshpit.

i am heaven sent...don't you dare forget.

right now explaining to jaymes why i like bmth. but anyway let me tell you about my wonderful day...

it started off with me sleeping from 6am-8am because i certain british ex coke head kept me up all night. so i got to school around 9am, for some reason they got a new lady to work in the box at the bottom of the stairs. so i hit the button and she's like "what do you need" and i'm like i'm a student and go to school?...no i need a number two with fries and a coke. so it takes her like five hours to let me in and while i'm waiting this giant spider comes down and attacks me. i have this giant water in my hand and i smack it down and scream well because i'm mandalyn...and i stomp on it killed it then the mysterious new lady was like "THE DOOR IS OPEN!!!!!" and i went in and this other lady was like "mandalyn corse you are going straight to the office" i had to explain to her that i'm terrified of spiders and it tried to eat me! then i went to school saw larry :D and i was happy.

so later on that i night i asked my friend danay if she was going to see the heisman hopefuls(my favorite local band) and she told me she'd be over in an hour. things were looking up because i kind of have a thing for the lead singer ;P. so she came and got me and we started off. there was a buch of traffic so we had to get off this exit. somehow we missed our turn to get back on high way so we pulled off to turn around and it stopped!!! we couldn't get it started again! mean while it is pouring outside...so we're stuck there waiting for her dad to come. so we tried to sleep but i had to had to eat and she needed to pee so we got out to walk to a gas station and we didn't see anything around us so we thought why don't we knock on somebodys door. so we knocked on this one house nobody answered so we went to the next house and they ended up being these amazing people. they let us in and gave us food and we watched a movie. they had an adorable daughter and a beautiful house. so it ended up being an ok night. i'm going off to bed.

deathclock.

if you know me at all or have ever talked to me for five seconds you know that i love babies. i love how tiny they are, how adorable they are, how they smell, everything. i am insanely motherly i make my friends lay on me while i play with their hair. i already have names picked out...ask and i'll tell you. i just want to be a mother. but i'm not going to go out of my way to have a child at the age of 16. i'm waiting until i'm happily married and ready to take care of 8 kids.

you're awesome/get well/happy graduation/you're fired.

I LOVE MITCHELL DAVIS!

and for some reason whenever i type "mitchell davis" i usually type "mitchell daves" haha like kids in the hall. These are the daves i know i know these are the daves i know some of them are davids but most of them are daves they all have their own hands but they come from different moms.

ANYWAY! i just bought two livelavelive shirts because i'm kind of a lavahead...he is so adorable and hilarious. i've always been random and here's this beautiful guy making videos full of randomness and factoids :D

i showed my mother some of his videos and she enjoyed them. she agrees with me, he is CUTE!(cute without the e, cut from the team).

so thats pretty much it i just wanted to dedicate an entire blog to mitchell davis and my love for him!

don't worry dearest, beauty is only skin deep

today was alot better. i was able to open my locker and my shoes stayed on all day. however, i did get ketchup on my white pants :( but one little mishap is better then an entirely horrific day.

FANCY! is also somebody that makes my school day tolerable. it makes me sad that i don't have every class with anymore "so i hear you like mudkips" he really got me through spanish without killing myself!

thats pretty much all for today :D

OHHHH! and i got ice cream.

you light the match, i'll stick around

today was my first day of school. while sitting through three DIFFERENT math classes i thought of many ways i could get out of school entirely here are some of the grand ideas i had while resisting the urge to rip my eyelids off:

1. conviently contracting swin flew

2. breaking every bone in my body

3. getting pregnant

4. buring myself head to toe so i can't move for several months maybe even years....as i typed this i realized that this one was majorly rediculous because i would have hideous scars(sorry if you do have said scars) and i would never be beautiful again.

that pretty much sums up my list of ways to end my high school career early. i had the worst first day in the history of the entire world! first of all i could not get my newly assigned locker to open. secondly i had math with my brother who is two years younger then me and about 93384x smarter then me (when it comes to math, that is). third, my shoe broke at lunch so i had to spend half of the day bare foot. it was not fun at all.

however there were a few good things about my day. such as...

CAKE! they gave us cake because we are like number one when it comes to pssa's (our ridiculous state testing)

and i got to see LAWRENCE ROBERT TOMPKINS! yes, the love of my life. he is such a beautiful man. he looked even better after not seeing him all summer. he is a great way to end my day :D

got to go wash my hair!

well don't worry sweetie cause i already know.

PEOPLE! make me angry. like Jaymes talking to me about having kids like we're just the best of freinds. Basia calling me a poser and constantly picking me apart. Dylan trying to sell stuff to jamie. people stealing my clothes and talking about me to my aunt. GOD GOD GOD DAMN. immature high school girls starting chaos over nothing, NOTHING. somedays i just think the world is out to piss me off and send me ranting. BLA!

goodbye summer '09

tomorrow i have to go back to school! i will miss this summer so much. it honestly was one of my best :D thanks to many many people like Moe, Basia, Jamie, Heather, Kyle, Johnny, Zach and Casey, Zach Baker. i will miss random trips to get fast food with zach baker, sleeping all day, watching mitchell davis videos all night, talking all night with the coke head, walking for ice cream with maureen elizabeth, cuddleing with basia, deposite, sleep overs with zach and casey, baking cookies with jamie, going to THH shows, texting constantly, swimming, filming with basia...yes i know i can do half of these things all year round but theres something amazing about summer that makes everything 100x more amazing and fun.

don't call me unkind

NOW! it is time for a real blog. this one is just going to be filled with my amazing randomness and some factoids about me. RAHRAHRAH. mitch is going to bed now.

i painted my toe nails green tonight while at moes and watching tslotat. yes that does look like i just hit a bunch of random letters but in all reality it stands for the secret life of the american teenager. i honestly find that show hilarious! the acting is absolutely terrible it makes me laugh so hard. how can anyone ever take it seriously "yes i know everything AND i have condoms". it's just too funny.

right now "baby i've got your money" by say anything is playing. tonight is my last night of summer, which means wednesday i have to go back to school. so far i have NOTHING. if i had it my way i would definetly be sleeping 12 hours daily for the rest of my life or just not ever returning to SCHS. that school makes me extremely angry. there is too much chaos and ignorant teachers/studants. uhgggg, i could slay them all and i would probably still get 12 hours a night. there is one reason, and one reason only, why i continue to attend my rediculous school...Lawrance Robert Thompkins. that man is beyond gorgeous. young teacher the subject of school girl fantacy...AHH!

it's about 12:08 and i planned on going to bed early because i can nolonger sleep all day. however , that idea did not become reality. i wonder when anybody fed alice last.

by the way, alice is my fat lard of a kitten. i got her in july and she is the love of my life. it's like having a fury infant.

i think thats enough for now. i am off to read "the heroin diaries" and possibly sleep.

p.s. i love nikki sixx <3

johnny philip

i can honestly say that i have no words for this boy. i'm sitting here trying to come up with some nice long blog about him and i have nothing. he makes me so happy, happier than anyone ever has. he is the sweetest person alive. sweeter then edward cullen and he's going to hate me for saying that because he loaths twilight and would probably rip edward cullen apart with his bare hands (along with oli sykes). to get to the point i love this boy too much :).

day one: Jamie Muffin.

HA! This blog is going to be about Jamie Brown, because while i was wondering what my very first blog should be about she sent me a picture of her new socks. It was very random and it made me chuckle. She usually makes my day. I have a few witty stories to share.

Jamie has saved me from being attacked by a creeper named steve at her grad party because my friend who shall not be named at this time abandonded me. She has also invented a silly code word for blood (muffins) because i am terrified of MUFFINS. Whenever i am at her house we bake cookies and ignore her sister. We have sat on diseased couches together. We have a love for fight club we qout it often, she loves Edward Norton and i, myself, have a thing for Brad Pitt. Jamie loves tattos and Oli Sykes. She is a myspace wizzard and will be leaving me for college land again shortly. i honestly only started hanging out with her this summer but she really is one of the best friends i've ever had. Everyone loves her, even my coke dealing cousin. I realize that these aren't really stories more like just random facts, factods about Jamie. So thats all for now. Dear Jamie, always remember....I WANNA BE WITH YOU FOREVER.